The day i Die!

And she said you dun have the guts........"cold cold heart...hard dun by you " ...i donot want to count the days that have gone by ... honest i cannot !



...i hurt into every crevice of logical reasoning that i search as to why this had to happen ...and when i hurt i know you do too ...lord how do i say the things ..in retrospect in this plain sheet of paper when my present unravels in front of me ...calls me names ..jealousy .. envy and i could give it a thousand blouches...but truly.. to the memories of those waves that washed our footprints on the beach , and to my first bike ride and i wore a helmet and you did not ..cos ...yeah ..you TRUSTED me .. and where did that go ? ...and to the man who looks inside of me and assembles a collage of the promises i made to her and did not keep ..till the day she said (sigh) he's just a good friend .. a good friend how'll never be more ...i would not !! goddamnit i would not understand ..i was the most important male figure in her life and "hello ..this is (blah) " ....just as vacuous as that ..cannot replace me... a statement cannot replace me .....thats all he was in turn ... of the kaliedoscope ...when his lines crossed mine ...and Dint know was being dealt a hand of poker till .. ...he won!...Im a great actor but my speciality is blah (here's an easy riddle!! :) ) ...its just this ......i cannot see myself...i just cant .. ...into any picture of happiness that i see her in ... ...i dun see myself ..honest to God i DONOT ..is that supposed to ......i donot know ..Im not a nice guy but i know i can cry too ! when i see her cryin .. on her first baby ..on her first house,.. on her first nursery .. on her first prof success ... i dun see myself ......so many things ... i dun see myself in ....except in that song I wrote and sang to her a ...time time ..... ago ......he sees her money ...he sees his greed ...he sees himself ..calls himself jesus ...she loves him he pretends to ...till the days they turn ...green and blue ...In the eyes of the rolling dime ...call it fair call it mine...the spins fair the spins time ...he minds her honey ...he sees his breed...talkin abt that ..groupie girl ...she sings and he hurts gee...till the days they turn ...green and blue ...In the eyes of the rolling dime ...call it fair call it mine...the spins fair the spins time...and when it hurts no more ...lie lie to her ...toss that coin to the shore ...that gurl she's my head ...and the tails to yore ...till the days they turn ...green and blue ...In the eyes of the rolling dime ...call it fair call it mine...the spins fair the spins time......honest to God i had a good tune for this ......... tch tch was long time ago ...what are these memories doing ? haunting my present and all that ... the spin's fair after all ....the spin's time